Lenders in the Temple

Right now at this second I am listening to Conor Obersts new self titled album for the first time and it is amazing. Their are no words. His music is my soul. period. as lame as it sounds. If someone told me to make a soundtrack of my life 95% of it would be Conor oberst.

Today I decided that one year from now I will be in Europe. I'm going to travel, I'm going to live in Germany with my mom, and I'm going to study, and I'm going to live.

mark my words.

if one year from now I'm not traveling somewhere something when wrong.

I'm going to work a lot and save as much as possible and then go to Europe with Kyla.... and then when we get back and graduate we are moving to Canada;) that is if we come back muahahah

I started working mornings at the cafe, I really like it. I don't get half as many tips which is kind of lame, but I'm done by 12, 12:30 which is awesome. Listening to good ole connor reminds me of South Dakota. I really loved just driving, alone, out in the middle of now, surrounded by nothing. Its just the best feeling in the world, to be somewhere new and different.

I feel like writing more but I'm to tired. so goodnight :D

Strangers on a Train

Well well well. I would like to start blogging regularly but then again, that's what I wanted to do with my last two posts... which were awhile ago, so much so that I had forgotten my password and sign in name, but obviously... I remembered. I just have to remind myself for future notice- Arielle, no ! in this one- OK.... I went to Hastings with Kyla around 10ish and had a very large vanilla frappe so I am very NOT tired. I am completely in love with my store discount, 2 large frappes for four dollars!!! cha ching. I started working at the cafe, and I LOVE it!! Its way more chill then working at the front cash registers and I get free drinks while I am working... Its def more my cup of tea.... LITERALLY hahahahhahahah. someone asked me why I liked working in the cafe better, and that was what I said... lol I thought it was funny. While I was at Hastings I checked to see if they had any copies of Strangers on a Train. I have been wanting to buy it for quite a while but couldn't ever find it. They had a copy!! so I got it... or well Kyla got it for me ;) We started watching the first half of it tonight, but Kyla started to drift off so we will watch the rest of it tomorrow. I didn't realize how nostalgic watching that movie would make me feel. The first time I saw it I was visiting Andi in Texas for a week, she was going to school in San Marcos and we went to visit one of her friends dorms. It was a rainy day and when we walked into the lobby of the dorm her friend and a bunch of people were watching it. I remember sitting there thinking how awesome it was to be there and how college-y it all felt. I really loved San Marcos, that was a really awesome trip!! there was this super cute diner that my mom and I ate at there, it was soo amazingly delicious. I miss Andi a lot!! I want to visit her so badly, and meet Abigale and Brandon. It's bizarre how much has happened since we saw each other last and how different we both are, but whenever I do talk to her its like we haven't skipped a day. I need to call her more. Big kitty is curled up next to me, I think that she is very happy that I moved home. or well am in the process of moving home. Kyla and I were both living with Jen, but since my mom and brother moved to Germany, we moved back into my parents house so that we don't have to pay rent. I do miss living with Jen though. I love talking to Jen and Heather, I haven't really seen them since we moved... but then again, things have been pretty busy lately with work and with school. btw. I REALLY DISLIKE OCCC. I am so ready to be done there. but at least my teachers aren't too bad so far... my mom was telling me about the school through the base in Germany and how I could take classes over there. That would be amazing. but I really don't want to leave, unless I could take Kyla with me, if I could I would be there in a heart beat. Some of the pictures they have sent me are unbelievable. I wish I could just travel for the rest of my life, just be a nomad like Anthony Bourdain. I bought one of his books, Kitchen Confidential... i have started reading it.... along with like five other books.... thanks to my Hastings discount I keep buying books and get distracted with the ones I have already started. oh well. they will give me something to look forward to. I have been hanging out with Andrea lately, which is good. She got back from camp about a week ago and is all tan and has freckles now.... which I am completely jealous of... maybe if I wasn't so freakishly white and went outside more I would gets some too. anyways, she said that since she got back she realized how small and self centered her view of the world was (or something like that, I don't quite remember her exact words), and I thought that was pretty amazing and so true, It's so easy for me to forget that and when someone or something brings it to my attention, its so refreshing. :D so thank you Andrea. I learned today that i can make a kick ass cappuccino... haha or well my version of a cappuccino... just a touch of vanilla syrup, just enough to make it a little sweet then topped with whipped cream( and yes, i know that a real cappuccino doesn't need whipped cream but whateve) and some chocolate on top- scrumdidilyumptious, however, I am not quite this good yet...go figure, but it will give me something to work for, yes it might take me the rest of my life ha, but maybe one day. ahh ok. well I'm starting to get tired... the effects of the caffeine are slowly but surely wearing off. I am going to start a list of things i want to do relatively soon. and here it is


list of things to do relatively soon-
Go camping
Actually finish a book before starting another one
Go to the gym more ( I went last night wooo hoo!!)
Cook more and eat out less
Do some sewing
Be studious
Do yoga or meditate or something

OK, that's good for now. I could keep going but then I think it would just be overwhelming and I wouldn't get very much of it done.


OH YEAH one last thing, any one wanna take meditation classes with me?? check it out
http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=22724983069&ref=mf
I think it sounds really nifty!!! let me know :D

alright. well GOODNIGHT everyone :D

....and it's only Monday.

Kyla and I went to bed fairly early last night, before twelve at least, so i don't know why I felt like i was going to pass out all day. I was extreamly tempted to turn around, put on my pajamas, and go to bed, but I decided not to.... unfourtunatly. At least, on my drive to school I found a short cut that is this really really pretty country road, which, for a little while remided me why I love Oklahoma. The first half of my school day went by ok... I spent most of it focused on finishing my english homework, which is my last class of the day. I also spent some time trying to decide on the topic of my big research paper. After mulling it over a for awile I picked one that i was very excited about. It was ,"The perception of Homosexuality and gender identity in the united states." The assignment was to pick ANY topic, as long as it was something that was we found interesting and would enjoy writing about. So after i turned it in he walked over to our table and was like, "about your topic... I don't know, i guess i'll let it slide but just barely, if it didn't have the gender part in it i wouldn't go for it" or something like that. So I was like... oh ok. then after class I went to ask him to clarify what he had ment and what he wanted me to focus on, and his answer completly left me hanging except for that he was like " I just don't want that to out weigh the other thing" and I was like "what, you don't want homosexuality to outweight gender identity"... and he made this face that showed exactly how uncomfortable he was with my choice of words, and the topic in general.... but the thing that really makes me angry is that if I were to write about something like Raceism and the perception of african americans in the united states he would COMPLETLY approve....why because that would be something that he could relate to and feel comfortable with.... he even told us that his freshmen research paper topic was something having to do with african americans bla bla bla.... so knowing him i would like to assume he might be able to relate to my topic somewhat.... but whatever. it just really pissed me off.... At least i chose a topic thats semi ambitious and creative... half of my class has decided to just retype there senior papers about "buisness management" or whatever else stupid shallow shit they wrote about..... fj;laskjdf;lajbljbljljdj but yeah.... idk... maybe i should just change my topic to something easy that i can half ass, cause that seems to be the trend i'm expected to follow..... I hate that it would be in my best intrest to do that.... LAME. And now im really really hungry, and i just wanna curl up next to Kyla and forget about everything!!!

Everything it must belong somewhere

God wow, my life has changed dramatically since the last time i wrote a blog.... This past year was definitely full of change. I came out to my family, I'm in an amazing relationship with Kyla, I moved to Portland and back, I drove halfway across the country multiple times, I moved out of my house and into and apartment with Daniel and Isaac, I'm going to school, I changed my career path completely, I shaved my head ha ect. ect. ect. but basically what it all comes down to is that I am so incredibly happy with the way my life is going right now, which is awesome.... I guess after such a busy year I'm starting to feel kind of antsy again... i really want to go somewhere.... like a road trip or a vacation or anything... i just really really want to get out of Norman, as much as i love it, i could use a little change.... even if it is just a spur of the moment trip to the meers store ha... anything would be much appreciated.... BUT I'm going to school now and i have no gas and money is def tight..... sooo that may have to wait a little bit. Today has been a really slow day.... it felt like a Saturday when i woke up so that has thrown me off today.... because it is defiantly not Saturday!!! :( I have just stayed at home because i have no gas until tomorrow... my room is clean now because of that though... so i guess its not a horrible thing.... Oh my brother is coming to take me to lunch!!! yeah food... I miss seeing Andre every day... and Okie and Matilda, and my parents.... but at the same time its nice to not have to see them every day in a way.... but yeah i need to finish getting ready... i will write more later :D