....and it's only Monday.

Kyla and I went to bed fairly early last night, before twelve at least, so i don't know why I felt like i was going to pass out all day. I was extreamly tempted to turn around, put on my pajamas, and go to bed, but I decided not to.... unfourtunatly. At least, on my drive to school I found a short cut that is this really really pretty country road, which, for a little while remided me why I love Oklahoma. The first half of my school day went by ok... I spent most of it focused on finishing my english homework, which is my last class of the day. I also spent some time trying to decide on the topic of my big research paper. After mulling it over a for awile I picked one that i was very excited about. It was ,"The perception of Homosexuality and gender identity in the united states." The assignment was to pick ANY topic, as long as it was something that was we found interesting and would enjoy writing about. So after i turned it in he walked over to our table and was like, "about your topic... I don't know, i guess i'll let it slide but just barely, if it didn't have the gender part in it i wouldn't go for it" or something like that. So I was like... oh ok. then after class I went to ask him to clarify what he had ment and what he wanted me to focus on, and his answer completly left me hanging except for that he was like " I just don't want that to out weigh the other thing" and I was like "what, you don't want homosexuality to outweight gender identity"... and he made this face that showed exactly how uncomfortable he was with my choice of words, and the topic in general.... but the thing that really makes me angry is that if I were to write about something like Raceism and the perception of african americans in the united states he would COMPLETLY approve....why because that would be something that he could relate to and feel comfortable with.... he even told us that his freshmen research paper topic was something having to do with african americans bla bla bla.... so knowing him i would like to assume he might be able to relate to my topic somewhat.... but whatever. it just really pissed me off.... At least i chose a topic thats semi ambitious and creative... half of my class has decided to just retype there senior papers about "buisness management" or whatever else stupid shallow shit they wrote about..... fj;laskjdf;lajbljbljljdj but yeah.... idk... maybe i should just change my topic to something easy that i can half ass, cause that seems to be the trend i'm expected to follow..... I hate that it would be in my best intrest to do that.... LAME. And now im really really hungry, and i just wanna curl up next to Kyla and forget about everything!!!